I was born in 1991, so technically, I am an adult. 20 years old. Sounds all fancy and independent, right?
But figuratively, I was just another 14 year old teenager. I couln't even make proper chapatis, let alone cook a whole meal. I'd never moved beyond the usual maggi-with-juice-or-sandwich-for-apparent-variety. I'd never folded my clothes, never did any of my important stuff on my own. Even when I had to go somewhere, I used to pack my bag, and my mom used to counter-check it, because she always used to feel that I would leave something for the last.
Which was, sort of, true.
Which was, sort of, true.
Till last month.
Since I've been staying alone, I've miraculously become so responsible. It's so surprising, because I never really felt that I had it in me! I mean all the multi-tasking and stuff. I was the laziest person I'd ever met. (And I meet a LOT of new people.)
I cook for myself (and that's pretty decent too!), I wash my clothes, I attend my classes, study properly as well! Can you believe that. More like, I cannot believe that!
I've started my internship too, which makes it really hectic, because I have to travel to two extreme ends of the city everyday. And I don't crib.
I find time to do everything, and I love love my busy schedule. Where I don't have the time to sit and think about useless things, which just initiate the whole negative thought procedure in my brain.
And it's wonderful!!
Maybe that's what I needed.
Things now work just my way and I am having a good time. I don't have to adjust to anybody's schedule and I can maximise my time doing stuff just for myself. It's taught me time management. It's taught me not to waste and while away time like I used to earlier!
Heck, I even discovered what a cleanliness freak I am! I just cannot survive in a mess. (Agreed, my standards are not mom standards, but then, I am on that path :P )
So, I am grown up.
It's not even a weird feeling.
I'm not scared anymore.
Since I've been staying alone, I've miraculously become so responsible. It's so surprising, because I never really felt that I had it in me! I mean all the multi-tasking and stuff. I was the laziest person I'd ever met. (And I meet a LOT of new people.)
I cook for myself (and that's pretty decent too!), I wash my clothes, I attend my classes, study properly as well! Can you believe that. More like, I cannot believe that!
I've started my internship too, which makes it really hectic, because I have to travel to two extreme ends of the city everyday. And I don't crib.
I find time to do everything, and I love love my busy schedule. Where I don't have the time to sit and think about useless things, which just initiate the whole negative thought procedure in my brain.
And it's wonderful!!
Maybe that's what I needed.
Things now work just my way and I am having a good time. I don't have to adjust to anybody's schedule and I can maximise my time doing stuff just for myself. It's taught me time management. It's taught me not to waste and while away time like I used to earlier!
Heck, I even discovered what a cleanliness freak I am! I just cannot survive in a mess. (Agreed, my standards are not mom standards, but then, I am on that path :P )
So, I am grown up.
It's not even a weird feeling.
I'm not scared anymore.
Bring it on life! Because, as they say, if life throws lemons at you, just catch them, squeeze them, and make a lemonade for yourself and enjoy the moments as they pass! :)
5 comments:
Good for you Miss Sunshine, the first time I was totally alone was when I lost my mother and husband within 2 months,I was 54 years and the feeling wasn't great for me,
I congratulate you on the happiness you feel.
Yvonne.
Remember what I said in my comment to your previous post ! Its already come true :) Way to go grown up chica !
you just graduated from a girl to a lady! :) bless ya.
@yvonne
Yes it takes time for us to get used to it.. But somethings cannot be helped!
@Shades of Grey
Yes, indeed. Whatever you said, is sort of happening.. :)
@sawan
That calls for a graduation party!! :D
Thanks :)
Hey! Well written. Very nicely explained. Your condition!
i loved it when i was independent for the first time. When i could make the decision on whether to have dinner or skip it. Whether i can buy a thing or not. The whole independence phenomenon made me so happy!
And, I think you're experiencing quite the same emotions and you have portrayed them quite accurately!
Good going!
Keep up the good work! :)
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