Friday, September 23, 2011

Seeking Perfection

'Who doesn't want perfection?' So said my friend, in a meek response to why she didn't want to apologise, be a bigger person and undo some not-so-happy incidents from the past. She wouldn't say sorry, because that would mean accepting her faults and falling a notch below the perfect friend standards. (If there is something like that!) She was ready to forgo her friendship to maintain her pride. I wanted to roll my eyes and tell her off, for using such ridiculous excuses, but I didn't. I just smiled and walked away. 



Was it true? Truth be told, I've never thought about it. Yes, I am very particular about where my belongings are placed, I love cleaning my room all the time, I space the words in my assignment as accurately as I can, but do I look for perfection? Do I work towards it all the time? I don't really think so. I work to be better than before, to be presentable to the level that it pleases everyone concerned, and that's it. I wouldn't ever be so obsessed with perfection that I throw away my life in the need of being "perfect". Maybe when it concerns materialistic things, I might look for the best, but never when it comes to people. We can't be on our guard every second. We cannot carry our checklist all around, just because we don't want anyone with faults. "Who's perfect, anyways?', I want to ask her. Is there anybody in the world with whom one cannot find anything wrong? Isn't that what makes us humans, and not robots manufactured in a high maintenance factory? Isn't that what distinguishes us from all the impressive perfect things that man himself has created?

It's disheartening to know that we've become so competitive and heartless that we don't want to accept anyone with their set of unique habits. It might be unacceptable to us, but that's the way of life for some people. We cannot judge people all the time. It doesn't leave us with anyone to have a laugh with, anyone to share our sorrows with. We are social beings, and we cannot exist alone in our perfect little world. Like it or not, we have to learn to accept people the way they are. For the sole reason, that they accept us too, and that's how it has always been.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Grown Up!


I was born in 1991, so technically, I am an adult. 20 years old. Sounds all fancy and independent, right?


But figuratively, I was just another 14 year old teenager. I couln't even make proper chapatis, let alone cook a whole meal. I'd never moved beyond the usual maggi-with-juice-or-sandwich-for-apparent-variety. I'd never folded my clothes, never did any of my important stuff on my own. Even when I had to go somewhere, I used to pack my bag, and my mom used to counter-check it, because she always used to feel that I would leave something for the last.
Which was, sort of, true.


Till last month.

Since I've been staying alone, I've miraculously become so responsible. It's so surprising, because I never really felt that I had it in me! I mean all the multi-tasking and stuff. I was the laziest person I'd ever met. (And I meet a LOT of new people.)

I cook for myself (and that's pretty decent too!), I wash my clothes, I attend my classes, study properly as well! Can you believe that. More like, I cannot believe that!
I've started my internship too, which makes it really hectic, because I have to travel to two extreme ends of the city everyday. And I don't crib.

I find time to do everything, and I love love my busy schedule. Where I don't have the time to sit and think about useless things, which just initiate the whole negative thought procedure in my brain.
And it's wonderful!!

Maybe that's what I needed.

Things now work just my way and I am having a good time. I don't have to adjust to anybody's schedule and I can maximise my time doing stuff just for myself. It's taught me time management. It's taught me not to waste and while away time like I used to earlier!

Heck, I even discovered what a cleanliness freak I am! I just cannot survive in a mess. (Agreed, my standards are not mom standards, but then, I am on that path :P )

So, I am grown up.
It's not even a weird feeling.
I'm not scared anymore.


Bring it on life! Because, as they say, if life throws lemons at you, just catch them, squeeze them, and make a lemonade for yourself and enjoy the moments as they pass! :)

Monday, August 29, 2011

Staying Alone!


Can you believe that? I couldnt.

I have to stay alone for a whole year. Without my parents, sister, my family!! :/
The earliest I can meet them is the next year. Yes, I do have relatives/friends etc etc to give me company and take care of me..

But how am I supposed to manage without my sister?

I've never slept without her being at my side. Never. She was the one I could do all my stupid stuff with. Without the fear of being judged. And now, I just dont have that support. Frankly, before this, I hadnt really understood her importance in my life!

And why am I far away?

STUDIES!! Can you beat that?

Ah, that's a huge panic attack and I really don't know what to do.
Maybe I deserve an ice-cream.

..But, I always go for ice-creams with my sister.

Where did I land up? :/
Calm me down, someone!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Forever, Forever, Forever 21!



Yes obviously it's the same Forever 21 I am talking about!

I was a big fan of their chic clothing range back in India as well. It's a fairly decent store with a good floor space and collection. I had decided that my next birthday shopping will be done there. And maybe that I would recommend my friends to go there as well..
And all those things.

And then I went to the Forever 21 store at Times Square.

OHMYGOODNESS.

It's a F-O-U-R level store. The place makes you forget that there's a world outside. (A beautiful one, I might add.) It makes you wanna cry, and it makes you realise why do people get stuck within debt traps and resort to shoplifting.

Why?

Because of such allurements the world has to offer to us lesser mortals.
The place is filled, stashed and overflowing, with beautiful clothes, shoes, dresses, accessories, cosmetics, and more clothes..!

I'm a clothes person, but not a crazy one. (Oh well, yeah crazy but not as crazy as I am about accessories) There's a whole floor dedicated to accessories. All the cute, gothic, junky, delicate type of stuff you would ever dream of. I've been there a lot of times already and I am so gonna go there again!

It's just amazing. Try on all those pretty things, (doesn't cost you anything!) and buy the one you love the most. No prizes for guessing that I've already bought two beauties.

(Act all happy like you really wanna know, please)
(I am anyways gonna rant) :P

One is a Mesh Pendant Necklace,






and the other,


a Bejeweled Bottle Necklace




Ah. Pure love.

Yes I am awestruck.

Seeyou,
(maybe in Forever 21)

:D