Trapped

Here you are, yet again

Crawling. Creeping unto me

Seeping through my skin

You freeze me from within.

Warmth. Sunshine. Radiance.

Deteriorate in your presence

Smiles condense

There isn't a twinkle in the eyes.

Happiness lays suspended

The gloom envelops me

Like a parasite

the misery is gnawing me

So deep within, it's becoming me.

Afar, yet so near

The chills assassinate me

Shivering, I yearn to be free

Knowing I wouldn't ever be

I'm trapped, bound.

In a figment my own imagination

Except, your demeanour

Cold. Ruthless. Selfish.

Has turned it into

Something I barely recognise.

Numb, I can barely feel

A prisoner in my own self.

Feelings..

Stronger than iron bars and flimsier than cotton candy.

It's funny how they still manage to run across all of us, threading us all in one go, without missing any one.

We can't see it yet it so always haunts us.

So complicated. Yet so simple.

Rhythm of Patience

We aren't us, You aren't me

This isn't what it seems to be

It ain't wrong, It shouldn't be

But you're becoming such a part of me

I can't name it, I don't even wanna

For you and you only, it's gonna go stronger

It's a little crazy, how we're entwined,

Like moss and ivy, alone you can't find.

You and I, we know it's coming,

But, we foolishly pretend.

Hiding behind our smiles is something,

something, so shamelessly more.

which, You and I, we know.

Acknowledge it, would we ever?

I wouldn't want us to,

But, I'm waiting,

Waiting for the inevitable to happen.

Because it's bound to,

bound to break us.

Till then, I'll breathe,

Breathe to the slow rhythm of patience.

Strike Off!

Just strike off the things that you haven't done in your life yet. Here I go :)

1. Smoked a Cigarette.

2. Got so drunk you passed out.

3. Rode every ride at an amusement park.

4. Collected something stupid.

5. Gone to a Rock Concert.

6. Helped someone.

7. Gone fishing.

8. Watched four movies in one night.

9. Lied to someone.

10. Snorted cocaine.

11. Smoked weed.

12. Failed a subject.

13. Been in a car accident.

14. Been in a tornado.

15. Watched someone die.

16. Been to a funeral.

17. Burned Yourself.

18. Run a marathon.

19. Cried yourself to sleep.

20. Flown in an aeroplane.

21. Cheated on someone.

22. Been cheated on.

23. Written a 10 page letter.

24. Gone skiing.

25. Been sailing.

26. Cut yourself.

27. Had a best friend.

28. Lost someone you loved.

29. Got into trouble for something you didn’t do.

30. Stolen a book from the library.

31. Gone to a different country.

32. Watched the Harry Potter movies.

33. Had an online diary.

34. Fired a gun.

35. Gambled in a casino

36. Been in a school play.

37. Been fired from a job.

38. Taken a lie detector test.

39. Swam with dolphins.

40. Voted for someone on a reality TV show.

41. Written poetry.

42. Read more than 20 books a year.

43. Gone to Europe.

44. Used a colouring book over age 12.

45. Had a Surgery.

46. Had stitches.

47. Taken a Taxi.

48. Had more than 5 IM conversations going on at once.

49. Been in a fist fight.

50. Suffered any form of abuse.

51. Had a pet.

52. Petted a wild animal.

53. Had your own credit card & bought something with it.

54. Dyed your hair.

55. Got a tattoo.

56. Had something pierced.

57. Known someone personally with HIV or AIDS.

58. Taken pictures with a web cam.

59. Lost something expensive.

60. Gone to sleep with music on.

Somebody There?

I want somebody to care for me,

Spoil me with their love.

I don't want a lover,

It might just be friend.

Why can't I get that?

Is it too Selfish?

Too hard to comprehend?

Why can't I undo my responsibilities?

Why can't I throw them around?

Nobody really cares,

and that's where it ends and begins..

Closed.

When I close my eyes..

It does become dark..

I do feel alone..

but somehow..

Somewhere I do feel enveloped..

Like nothing can ever harm me!

It's the beauty of unadulterated pure love.

For me, from you.

Where am I?

Where am I?
What am I doing with my life?
Is this what I was destined to do?
What about the thousand million dreams?
Is this my true calling?
Is this it?



The truth is I myself don't know the answer to these questions.
I've never felt so stupid and dumb. It feels as if the entire world is moving and i'm just fixed, rooted to my position. Even if I move, it's not in the direction my heart wants to.


Hell, I'm confused. It's not even funny this time.

I bought My Corby Again!!

Finally, I bought my darling phone back. The love of my life.

I'd lost my Corby touch 4 months ago, someone else lost it for me actually.

I saved my ass off for it, and bought it again. I'm so happy. My pretty touch phone.
It's so cute with the comic sans style fonts and stuff. It's just so me.

I will never let you out of my sight. :)

It comes with 5 panels. COLOURFUL! :D

<3>

Du Hast Mich :D

Devilish angel,

Unperturbed by my notions, you

Hopped into my life.

Amazed I was, because

Secrets I was pouring,

Time and again, unto you.

Magic, nothing less,

I never thought I would be,

Caught by your

Hazardous demeanor.

Hey blaaaaaaackcurrant, that's for you. =))

Maa

Happy Mother's Day Mumma. :) I Couldn't go beyond Maa for the title of the poem, because that's what she is to me, my Maa! :)

(For the uninitiated, Maa is the Hindi word for Mother)

Running down,

Wailing aloud,

My foot bleeding,

In and out.

You felt faint,

But my mother,

You still caught me around.

Picture pretty,

Beautiful princess,

You kept me prim and proper,

Perhaps sacrificing

Your own desires.

Shouted on me,

Sometimes slapped me,

For I got a zero,

I failed you,

I do realise,

But it wasn't all intentional.

102 , 103, 104 degrees,

You sat by my side,

All through it,

Fanning me as I slept,

Caressing me as I wept.

Even though I never say it,

In my heart it's embedded,

I love you mom,

And I don't think,

Moms get better than this! :D

Thank you Jaideep for the motivation and the inspiration. If I could I'd dedicate this to you, but it would be funny if I do. :D :)

xox

Remorse

Truth begone,

I forgive

not forget.

You smile

fool around,

I give in,

never connect.

I know,

It's all in

the moment,

You don't mean

to reignite

the love lost.

Remorse, guilt

is so not you,

You shall not feel it,

or ever recollect.