Remorse

Truth begone,

I forgive

not forget.

You smile

fool around,

I give in,

never connect.

I know,

It's all in

the moment,

You don't mean

to reignite

the love lost.

Remorse, guilt

is so not you,

You shall not feel it,

or ever recollect.

Answer

Breathing down my neck,

I catch you steal glances at me,

The oneness, the proximity,

Is it the same for you, as for me?

There's nothing I would want more,

You, me, our fantasies,

Climbing high, soaring by,

It exhilarates me, our ecstasies.

Sins of past,

Ghosts of future,

I tremble,

I don't want to see beyond.

Misdeed, whimsical rapture?

Love or lust?

Is this the true form?

Your lips brush against my ear,

And suddenly,

I don't want the answer.

You Gotta..

..be ashamed of yourself!

After all that you did, you should be the last person to say anything, you know.

I Hope you do realise.

Just A Thought..

It's funny how I never knew you before,

In the true sense is what I'm implying!

You're so stupidly understanding..

And kind of like me,

So perhaps, that's why you have a special place in my heart.

That's for Jaideep. :P

I've Been..

...daydreaming a lot lately. Really a LOT. Not that I'm complaining..but it's getting too much. It's like my mind's been blocked with clouds around it. So that I cant figure out anything beyond it!

Wake up Miss Sunshine! Please Do!

Cute-ness!

It was totally random and silly and not one of the best ones ever, but yeah, it was really cute and nice.

Confused? Sorry! I'm just so happy that I'm grinning like a fool since evening. It was so splendid, even if it was for like 20 minutes.

Oops, there I go Agaiin. So yes, I'm talking about my 'date' which took place today. hehe! Inside a bus! =))

We were going back home and were in a hurry and I was very hungry, like ravenous, so we just decided to grab some stuff and take it with us to eat along the ride. =))

I just noticed that I'm blabbering.. Oh well, to hell with it.

So ya, we took a paneer bread pakora (Cheese sandwich between slices of bread ,dipped in gram flour paste and fried) and some ketchup to go with it, a veggie sandwich, a bottle of mineral water.

We hopped onto the bus, went to the last seat and sat down with our loot. The bus was pretty empty, except for us there were just two other people..so we took a lot of liberty and spread out our feast over the next seats as well..I kept asking for tissues and a spoon and all other paraphenelia and he kept getting off the bus to get it for me! Without cribbing, the smile on his face was transfixed. He loves to see me eat. (read: gobble)

And rickety - rick the bus went while we enjoyed our snack (in my case , lunch!) . It was very adorable because I get very messy when in a moving vehicle and he kept wiping ketchup off me..

As soon as I finished with the pakora , I was in a fix as to where and how to dispose off the yucky mess. I wanted to dispose it of ASAP because my pretty new bag would have so gotten soiled. :| hehehe. So he, without battling an eyelid took the waste from me and kept holding it while I kept munching away! I even forgot to share it with him! ;)

Then thankfully I realised that I was behaving like a hungry baboon and fed my poor baby! I finished the sandwich as well, all by myself..hahaha. :D

We ate an orange to wind it all up :) lol.

That's all, I don't think I did justice to the sweetness of it all. But well..! *sighs*

I wish I could have those 20 minutes back! :)

It's Just What Everyone Said It Would Be Like

• Splashes in the mucky water,
• Doing HOMEWORK,
• Watching reruns of Flinstones,The Lulu show, SWAT cats, Tom and Jerry, Captain Planet, The Disney Show,
• Going to play for 3 hours straight,
• Eating,
• Sleeping,
• Playing ghar-ghar,
• Sometimes getting scolded.

Tell me , giving or taking a few wasn't that just it when we were crazy li'l kids? That was our life. That WAS it. Surprisingly, we were so happy. We had the times of our lives when we were 2 feet somethings. Tell me if I'm lying.

I know I'm not, and you should admit that I'm not.You were the happiest when you were the rolling-in-the-yucky-mud entities.

And growing up, till last year didn't seem so bad! I mean it was like, "Fine I'm growing up, Yes I do miss the silly childhood, but It's Cool!"

Suddenly it doesn't seem so..! They were right when they said that it sucked to grow up.. I was so blissfully unaware to notice.. It's all coming back to me now..

It seems that all the happiness is being sucked out, slowly painfully so that we know that it's happening to us. Darn, why and when did I grow up?

I'm gonna get scandalized if this feeling continues. I'm not meant to be grown up. I'm not fit enough for heaven's sake!

Are you listening , God?

That's For You! Impromptu!

Oh yes! You know who you are, and it's gonna be all about you , you know that?

• I think I'll start with a big S-O-R-R-Y. I know we haven't fought or something, but well sorry for the times when I'd been the reason for the precious tears in your twinkling eyes!
• Just by the way, you're the most adorable thing I've ever laid my eyes on. And you don't know how glad I am. That I did that. =))
• You're just everything I could have asked for. Actually you're so much more than that! You're something I never imagined existed.
• You NEVER let me down, can we please make that clear? PLEASE? Even when I'm mad at you, it's not because the apparent letting down..! You're perfect.
• Sorry for being mad at you. For all those times.
• Sorry for being mean.. I swear it was all unintentional. I cannot hurt you. Ever. Sorry.
• You're awesomeeeeeeee.!
• You're all that I have.
• You can sleep for as long as you want.. I swear I wont get mad at you.
• You're super special. I cannot think of being without you, you know that right?
• I'm NEVER gonna leave you. Not even in your nightmares.
• I love your smile. =))
• I'm just jealous of your friends. I hate it when you flash that beautiful smile for someone else. Yes, I'm very possessive. Maafi dede? :)

• I just wanna keep you to me.

• Yes, I'm jealous of your family too. Everyone. I wish I could keep you in a confined room where the access was confined to just me. =)) *Sorry*
• Did I mention I loooooooooove your smile? :)
• I wuv your crazy confused expression. :*
• Your hair is enchanting. Period.
• You still make me go weaaaaak in the knees, however you might think, you know?
• You still make me go nervous when I see you. (Oh yes, I never admit it, I know :">)
• I wish I could keeeeep staring at you. Like Stalking you I mean.
• I know this might sound silly, but it's very special to me and you. I know that. You're my best friend. Yes you are were and will always be. :) My Permanent Best Friend.

I Miss You, You know that? I know we just chatted, but I miss you.. :(

Take care :)

I love you. =))

Connect.

Sometimes, some things are unexplainable. That’s what I’ve accepted after my last post!

I found yet another thing to baffle myself, or to put in some weirder yet simpler terms, I found yet another naked truth dancing in front of me!

Don’t you sometimes feel that X is very important to you but you don’t hold the same place in X’s heart? (I’m not talking about romantic disappointments! Anything BUT that!) I’m not even touching the I-love-you-but-you-don’t part. Just plain importance. Doesn’t it happen?

Like you care about the li’l kitty across the road, you bring her treats, tidbits, milk everyday, going out of your way. How does she reciprocate? By never letting you pat her, or even a grateful meow!

It’s not even the fact that the other person is cold hearted/mean/bitchy etc, but the fact that you’re just not there where you place the other person. Am I making even a tiny weeny bit of sense?

Great! If I am that is..

Oh Yes! It does hurt sometimes. It’s human nature after all. You do everything under the sun, over the ocean for them and they couldn’t care less..! But don’t think of it this way..

Did they ever oblige you to care for them? Did you sign an agreement laying down the rules?

Yes, that’s it. We weren’t forced to do it. Care. We care because we want to. Because there’s some deep connection which binds us to them. Think of it this way, they needed you to protect them and not vice versa. That there’s a strong string binding you, which you can see and feel, not them.

Because you’re the giver, not the taker!

Strange games the nature plays, eh?