Drug Abuse: It's closer than you think!

Ahh..well..all of us are familiar with it..or rather the technical aspect of it..as in what it is..how is it done and all! 

I am going to start with a little short story which is a true one..

A few weeks ago,I was talking to a close friend of mine at 11 p.m. in the night. We were laughing, fooling around and all the things normal people do..then suddenly she asks me to cut the call, as it's the time when she talks to her boyfriend! I cribbed, but nonetheless cut the call. I wanted to talk to her but then decided against it as she would be talking to her guy! Then i just decided to doze off..i switched off the lights and slept! The next day morning, when we met (she's a college mate) , the always happy go lucky Naina (name changed!) seemed a bit pissed. I did not notice initially, but I did afterwards when I saw her snapping at everyone she talked too.. I asked her as to what had happened..she was a bit reluctant but finally gave in and told me what had happened. Last night her guy did not talk to her nicely and was rude AND did not talk to her.. It was a big deal because Kunal (name changed again!) was a very caring and affectionate guy! I calmed her down and said my share of..it's okay's and don't worry's! She was pissed..said I wont call him now, until he does and all! My wretched intuition told me not to allow her to do so..as in not talk to him. (I call my wretched intuition "wretched" because it always gives me an hint when something is wrong!) I made her talk to him..and know what happens?

He had been given a LETHAL overdose of drugs. 

Even if there was 2-3 grams more, he would have been gone. NO MORE in this happy world!

Which is now turning sad!

Why I narrated this was because I want to make it clear that it's not just in movies anymore! It's for real! Drugs flow freely like water in our country! So guys, just be more aware and vigilant! Coz' it ain't cool!

Btw, it was stupid of me to not mention how he was tricked! He was invited (forcefully) to a "party" for lohri , it's a north Indian harvest festival. Everyone was drinking there, but he did not. He kept saying "no's" and "thnank you's". Then somebody handed him a glass of Pepsi, which he of course did not refuse and drank it. He drank half a glass , ONLY half a glass of that Pepsi and fainted! Half a glass had so much drugs! CAN YOU believe?

And as someone has rightly said , Bollywood may not be that "unrealistic" anymore!

Ashrita Di and Seno Tagged me! ( Mrinal, Manjari, Riddhika..YOU ARE TAGGED NOW!) :P

RULE 1: People who are tagged must write their answers to the tag and change any question they like.
RULE 2: Tag 3 people and they cannot refuse to do this tag. They must write who tagged them and cannot tag that person again. Continue the game. And I hope it will be sheer fun.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction?
Hmm..good question..lol! I dunno what exactly I will do..but I will kick his ass..and be sad..OFC! :P

2. If you have one dream which could come true, it would be?
Somebody making it to IIT! :)

3.Who is more blessed-loving someone or being loved by someone?
If you love someone deeply..madly..the person will automatically love you unconditionally..! I think it goes hand in hand..like your mum loving you since you were a tiny baby..and you loving her back..whatever the circumstances might be!

4. Can you fall in love with your best friend ?
Not me..because I have my someone special..but yes, you can..!

5. How long would you wait for someone you love?
It's a bit *filmy* but I would wait all my life...for the person who's assigned to me..LOL!

6. If the person you like is secretly attached, what would you do?
If I know that he is..I will try dropping hints..! :P

7. If you could root for one social cause, what would it be?
Cruelty to animals..and upliftment of woman!..sorry..both are special!

8. What according to you is blogger in denial?
Blogger in denial? dunno! :P maybe someone who doesn't wanna read other people's post..or someone who is not aware of his surroundings..I really dunno! :D :|

9. What’s your fear ?
The fear of losing my loved ones..

10. What colour are your socks now?
Purple..with pink flowers.. :D

11. What are you listening to now?
My sister..shouting..from the balcony.. :D

12. What takes you down fastest?
MORONS! You know what I mean! Air heads..people who are not loyal to their friends!

13. Which one do you prefer - ice-cream or chocolate?
Hmm..Umm..I dunno! DIFFICULT! I say ice-cream..chocolate flavour :P *ahhhhhhh* *heaven*! :P

14. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Make Slumdog Billionaire..LOL! :P I would donate some..spoil myself, my friends, my family silly!

15. What was the last thing you ate?
Roti-subzi-daal! :P (Had lunch!)

16. How old are you today?
I am 17 years..11 months..18 days..2 hours..41 minutes.. :P

17. How do you vent out your anger?
I go crazy..I go and say all sorts of stuff to my loved ones..Sorry guys! :(

18. Favourite toy as a child? 
My poor Teddy..who wore my clothes..lol..and toy cars! :)

18. Favorite season? 
Winter! :)

19. When was the last time you cried?
hmm..3 days ago i guess..

20. Who is the friend you have had the longest? 
Anushruti..for the past 12 years! *touchwood*

21. What did you do last night?
Spoke to my guy..read a book..did a little bit of padhai..spoke to Anushruti..messaged with Sanchita..YEAH! I was busy! :P

22. Favorite day of the week?
Hmmmmm...Friday!

23. Diamond or pearl? 
Diamonds are a girl's best friend! :P

24.Would you be single & rich or married & poor ? 
Hmm..I'd like to use permutations and combinations.. :) MARRIED AND RICH! *muhahaha* :P

25.What is the first thing you do when you wake up? 
See the time..get happy that it isn't time to get up..and snuggle back! :D

26.If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, whom would you pick? 
You can't fall in LOVE with two people..you can have crushes..and in that case I would chose the one who chooses me..! hehe!

27.Would you give all in a relationship ? 
Yea! That's what makes it strong!

28.What’s eating you now ? 
No one..I don't have any cannibals around..! :P (sorry..I know..Lame!)

29.Do you prefer being single or in a relationship? 
I don't prefer anything..but RIGHT now..I prefer the latter..

30. Your opinion of 3 bloggers who you are going to tag and the one who tagged you. 
Ashrita Di: Beauty with LOADS of brains! HOW UNFAIR CAN GOD BE!?

Seno: CUTIE PIE! Super smart and adventurous!

About the ones who I m tagging – 
Manjari - a fellow ILMB-ite..i love the mystery she creates..by not putting her DP! :P
Mrinal: My potty..lol.my angel..my partner in EVERYTHING! I love you!
Riddhika: A sweetheart..my bestie too.. :) very lovable!

A Poem..!

I am not writing a poem.. :P I am just gonna express my thoughts over this four letter word! Hmm.. I like reading poems..understanding it..grasping, absorbing the message, the warmth of it! I appreciate the poet..I do all the normal stuff a nice writer, poet would do, regarding other people's poem! What's the big deal, you ask? The BIG problem, according to me is, I can't write one. YES, I can't. I am too embarrassed to admit this, but I cannot. The Dogs poem on the left hand side, I cannot do THIS much also! :P I don't know why! It's not like I am not well-versed with a particular language, that my vocab is very limited, (okay, I am not P.B. Shelly, but my vocab is decent enough!) but I am just plain scared!

lol.

I am scared of writing a poem..everytime I start composing one..I am tongue-tied, the pen in my hand doesn't want to touch the paper, the paper wants to just fly away, my brain wants to go to sleep..everything becomes feasible for me to NOT attempt to compose a poem! :D I don't know if it's my imagination, but this happens to me! I can write a 5000 words essay, if compelled I can write a story book also..I like writing! But, whenever I decide to take this writing and mould them into rhyming, rhythmic verses..I discover I can't write. I become as illiterate as I was when I joined Somerville School on January 7, 1996. I have no idea why! Once, I thought , enough is enough, I am going to beat my stupid silly notion of mine and SHOW my inner scared self that I can write a poem! I went to my mom (she works with Library of Congress, Delhi branch) and told her to get me a book on how to write poems. I waited for the whole day for her to return..with my precious book..she did. At 7 p.m. she returned. I opened it, read some basic tips..and started of with a basic topic..Flowers..I wrote a line.. "A creation of nature.." and FROZE. I couldn't write more. It was like boogeyman had taken over me..I tried so hard.. I tried the next day too! But i couldn't..I told mum to return the book..Then I just gave up!

After a few years, my sister started writing poems..OH MY GOD! Such wonderful ones..she writes so seamlessly..as if everything was prepared inside..watching her ignited a ray of hope in me..I tried again..

But, as you have guessed it did not work! :P I haven't tried since then..

I hope to overcome it..someday..and write a poem..about SOMETHING..and overcome my fears..and my disability! 

Meow Chilly!

Well , this is dedicated to my friend Chillz , whom i have never met..Chillz is a cat..and was Mrinal's pet! Well,Mrinal is my girl-friend! :P lol.
I write a letter to Chillz here:
Hey Chilly,
Hmmm..I know of you as a cutie-pie cat..kitten actually..who is the apple of everyone's eye in your house..but well , you had to leave for your heavenly abode..leaving all of us , your fans nonetheless , behind..I think you were called back for a mission..to make some more people happy.. :)
All the best! :)
Apurva


(btw, i write in baby language coz Chillz was a baby! , and he will understand that language only!) :)


And now i write to Mrinal:
Hey Buddy..
It's not Your fault that Chillz has gone..maybe he was god's special cat and has been called back for a mission! :) He was an angel , sent to you to make you happy..and now someone else needs him more than you!
AND! Please don't cry..i don't think our Chillz would like it! I love you mate! Don't even think that everyone you love is snatched away from you..Chillz has gone for greater good! (YEAH! stolen from Harry Potter, so what!?) and you should be proud of him!
Love,
Apurva :)

My Ex-Best Friend..

umm hmm..why are you frowning? Never heard of this term? You Can Never..until you experience it and undergo the loss and pain. Well i wont name the person, but by reading it,it will be fairly obvious to the same person that it's about/for him/her. For my few readers..i'l refer to that person as EBF or ex-best friend. I am not writing this to criticize EBF solely, but to vent out my feelings in the true sense..so now you are getting impatient..as to WHY am I not telling HOW EBF became EBF from BFF! Right? I will go through the painful details too..Only because I want my EBF to know that it wasn't a path of orchids ( they are my favourite , not roses) for me contrary to his/her belief. Hmmm..everything was so cool and nice and charmante between us! We were such good friends that people thought we were DATING! I MEAN! For god's sake! Well , it WAS cool..then EBF changed. CHANGED BIG time. For good! He/She hated everything i did , found fault in every MOVEMENT of mine , THOUGHT I was uncool to hangout with. Well, maybe I am, but I was like that before also! Why did you accept me then in the first place? Only to hate me now..?!

Well, I really don't know what you feel about all the shit you have created..You act as if you are affected , repenting , sad, by this incident. Well, I don't see a change in your behaviour or attitude towards me. I am still a piece of shit for you , or so you behave! I always lived in your shadow, you were the darling, not me. You liked the limelight, you got it,NOT ME! I did not complain, because I was happy. Happy that someone understands me, someone cares for me! Or so i thought. I know, I was naive. Maybe I still am. BUT I trust people not to break me into gazillion little pieces, like you did.

And whatever you thought that time , whatever you did that time, whatever you said that time. I forgave you. So that we could be back to being "BFF's". As if it was that easy. But I thought it would be that simple. I did. I actually thought so.

It wasn't as if I was a little angel , and you were the monster. I had my share of bad habits too, which irritated you, but you knew me. You knew my habit for saying things as they are. For NOT behaving practically, for dreaming that things are still okay, when they are not.

YOU KNEW I had pride. YOU knew. You accepted me before. Suddenly , now , you don't.

I have no idea what heinous crime had I committed that you stopped talking to me for a month, in November 2007, without even a reason! I tried so bloody hard to get you back, but you hated me. Suddenly , you are back to normal. You call me, say I am sorry, and I , like an Idiot BELIEVE you. Ha!

What reason do you give me? I was with my guy too much and did not give you time. I was so ashamed of myself! I always thought I was dividing my time equally! I even thought of breaking up. I almost did, but thankfully I did not. THANKFULLY I did not. I say sorry, and make a mental note never to do things to hurt you again. I call up my other friends, who are also close to me, ASK them, how mean was I? Do I not give you time? Am I so selfish? I ask them so that I can repent, apologise and not lose my precious friends.

WHAT does everyone say? I have never ever hurted them by this way. I have always kept my time with them private. I have never let both my time overlap and that I am one of those few people who do this EFFICIENTLY.

I am not self-praising here, only presenting the facts. I swallowed my pride again. I thought maybe I am wrong, maybe everyone else who said the above lines don't need much of my time, and are content with whatever time I spend with them. Maybe EBF needs MORE. OFC, she/he does , he/she was my BFF!

I keep swallowing my pride, over the whole of 2008, or till October maybe, still thinking that we will be back together..share our secret moments..giggle at people with wrong dressing sense..go to each other's place for lunch..dinner..bitch about everyone on this planet..discuss the latest Harry Potter..laugh at each other when we catch one of us with a Face pack on..tease each other..

But as they say, dreams are too good to be true. I realised we will never be back..Whatever I do..You will still hate me..even if I offer my soul to you..you wont be happy. I realised what I was doing for the past year was not needed. You hated me..and you will continue to do so..the reason for this , I guess only you know. But , I still have hope left..you still mean the same to me..

I hope someday..some miracle turns you from an EBF to my BFF again.

Until then, I wait. I wait, as everyday the sun shines and waits for sunset. I wait, as every year the new year's eve waits for the new year. I wait, as the people in the restaurant wait for their dishes to come. I wait, as the guy who has missed his train waiting for the next one. I wait, as the raindrops do for the monsoon to start. I wait, as the moon does for the sun to go down. I wait, as the star does for the right time for it to shine.

I wait.

Goodbye 2008..

Even though I welcome 2009 gladly..i am a bit sad coz we are leavin behind 2008..

2008 gave me some very amazing memories.. .. and some very amazing friends.. MY cabbies…who I would like to thank.. :D

thnku cabbies for makin my year so special and memorable..be it the surprises for everyone..be it the bumpy rides..the runway..goin to IHC in our nice formals..and gettin them all trashed coz of the number of us in the cab! lol..sanchu's and shweta's marriage..

everything!

we’ve always been together..and I hope we will be for always.. :D

thnx..and thnku to the khatara old maruti van too.. :D

hmm..so here r the cabbies for those ignorant ppl who don’t knw us! :P 

…..diya…a.k.a. simon..

I WAS SO WRONG ABOUT YOU!! Oh gosh! I am so ashamed man..but I guess it’s okay now.. :P diya is one of the warmest ppl..one of the most brainest idiots..around!

She’s supercool..and a superslut..lol! <3>

:P

…..niks…a.k.a. niks amma..(4 me!)

okay..firstly..sorry fr teasin u so much..dat dsnt mean I will stop but.. :D niks is DU full attendance holder ..LOL! :P she’s the one who always pokes me for doin the WRONG stuff..which I think is cool.. :) niks is someone I would go to if I want proper , SANE advice.. :P ;)

THNX! <3>

……..ritika..a.k.a jerry…

we were such idiots,morons..nonsense..i

n school..for not knowin each other..lol! YEAH! Ur blamed too! I love the fact that I can totally count on her when I crack lame jokes.. :P

because she laughs on them too!! *Thnx* :P 

btw , a piece of advie u should seriously use.. :P.. try modellin u hottie.. 

and I love ur new haircut!! :) <3>

…….shweta…a.k.a. luchhi..(although no1 calls u this!)…

OMG! She is SUPER CRAZY! INSANE IN THE BRAIN! She’s high even when she’s nt drunk!! :P and her silly comments…ROFL! I can totally imagine her right now..makin silly faces.. :D and the way she sings..at the drop of a hat.. lol!

But @ the end of all the stupidity she’s amazing..! <3>

………shraddha a.k.a. ummmmmmm…..nothing well!.. :D

*STANDING OVATION*

because she said 10 intelligent things in ONE DAY!..lol..that’s shraddha for u! hehehe..despite her silly brain..she’s a cutie pie..with a nice friendly grin..lol! <3>

…..prateek..a.k.a. idiot..(I named u rite now)..

lol! WELCOME new cabbie..he’s the newest of us..nonetheless he’s a part of our family..He’s so nice..coz he holds my bag! Lol..i love his way of katofyin everyone..and his idiotic fights with sanchu.. :D <3>

…kshitij..a.k.a.”K”..a.k.a

.kababi-sharabi-harami..

BFIA BHAI! :P I love our silly outings and all..I MEAN! Who goes to CP frm shag\hadra..just for breakfast! WHY? Coz we were late for our class by 10 minutes…OMG! And our silly fights 2 annoy sanchu!! Oh man , I miss u..jaldi aa!!

Even though he’s a harami..he’s one of those gold hearts waale..lol

BAS BAS!! Hawa main mat udd..come down!! <3>

..sanchu..a.k.a. pataka..

now u must be fumin as to why ur named at the last! Lol..that’s because..i have so much to say!! I dunno how, but we’ve grown so close..doin everythin silly..after just some months..u hav this special place in my heart..(I SO HOPE DHAWAL IS GETTING Jealous) :D

lol..never had I thought we’ll become such good frnds the first time we met..rmbr na moti? Lol..and we hav so much In common..the best thing is MTNL ka phone..hahaha! :P lol! Be the same..i dun mean ur size.. :D 

muah! <3>

I love u guys..**sniff sniff** :P <3>

Kuch jyaada hi likh diya mazak mazak main! Lol!

Be the same.(.i hope not in the same cab but) in the following new year!!

Cya!

Appu!

AND! 

THNX CBS TOO! :P

However chhotu our campus is..i love my college! :) coz we rock!

AND!

thnx Vinod too! even though ur not a cabbie , ur close to my heart too! <3 >

thnx Abhi too! because ur a SUPER STUD! <3>

thnx Riddhika..coz ur such an ass! i wont say nice stuff,coz u think i am lying.. :(

but now that u are nice enough to lemme write..i will.. :)

oh well..ur such an Insane person..and such a complicated person..u show everyone how strong..and unemotional..and heartless u r..but actually..ur sucha a sweetheart.. <3>

most importantly..i love how u have this totally awesome way of solving my problems so SIMPLY! I keep on brooding over it for like a week..and u solve it in a jiffy! You're one of those who wont be there in happy times..but will always b there in sad ones..to support ofc..that's wat u have done fr me..and i wanna thank u for that! 

:P love u!

thnx Aru,for bein my soul twin! and understanding me and bein there when i need u the most,even wdt me askin u too!

thnx Mrinal..for being who u r..u knw what i mean babe! 

thnx Anshu,for bein my oldest pal..and jheling me for 11 years now..thnk god for the day i left my water bottle in the school..lol! :P

thnx..last but not the least...my fellow ILMB-ites :)