A Poem..!

I am not writing a poem.. :P I am just gonna express my thoughts over this four letter word! Hmm.. I like reading poems..understanding it..grasping, absorbing the message, the warmth of it! I appreciate the poet..I do all the normal stuff a nice writer, poet would do, regarding other people's poem! What's the big deal, you ask? The BIG problem, according to me is, I can't write one. YES, I can't. I am too embarrassed to admit this, but I cannot. The Dogs poem on the left hand side, I cannot do THIS much also! :P I don't know why! It's not like I am not well-versed with a particular language, that my vocab is very limited, (okay, I am not P.B. Shelly, but my vocab is decent enough!) but I am just plain scared!

lol.

I am scared of writing a poem..everytime I start composing one..I am tongue-tied, the pen in my hand doesn't want to touch the paper, the paper wants to just fly away, my brain wants to go to sleep..everything becomes feasible for me to NOT attempt to compose a poem! :D I don't know if it's my imagination, but this happens to me! I can write a 5000 words essay, if compelled I can write a story book also..I like writing! But, whenever I decide to take this writing and mould them into rhyming, rhythmic verses..I discover I can't write. I become as illiterate as I was when I joined Somerville School on January 7, 1996. I have no idea why! Once, I thought , enough is enough, I am going to beat my stupid silly notion of mine and SHOW my inner scared self that I can write a poem! I went to my mom (she works with Library of Congress, Delhi branch) and told her to get me a book on how to write poems. I waited for the whole day for her to return..with my precious book..she did. At 7 p.m. she returned. I opened it, read some basic tips..and started of with a basic topic..Flowers..I wrote a line.. "A creation of nature.." and FROZE. I couldn't write more. It was like boogeyman had taken over me..I tried so hard.. I tried the next day too! But i couldn't..I told mum to return the book..Then I just gave up!

After a few years, my sister started writing poems..OH MY GOD! Such wonderful ones..she writes so seamlessly..as if everything was prepared inside..watching her ignited a ray of hope in me..I tried again..

But, as you have guessed it did not work! :P I haven't tried since then..

I hope to overcome it..someday..and write a poem..about SOMETHING..and overcome my fears..and my disability!