Sunday, January 11, 2009

A Poem..!

I am not writing a poem.. :P I am just gonna express my thoughts over this four letter word! Hmm.. I like reading poems..understanding it..grasping, absorbing the message, the warmth of it! I appreciate the poet..I do all the normal stuff a nice writer, poet would do, regarding other people's poem! What's the big deal, you ask? The BIG problem, according to me is, I can't write one. YES, I can't. I am too embarrassed to admit this, but I cannot. The Dogs poem on the left hand side, I cannot do THIS much also! :P I don't know why! It's not like I am not well-versed with a particular language, that my vocab is very limited, (okay, I am not P.B. Shelly, but my vocab is decent enough!) but I am just plain scared!
lol.
I am scared of writing a poem..everytime I start composing one..I am tongue-tied, the pen in my hand doesn't want to touch the paper, the paper wants to just fly away, my brain wants to go to sleep..everything becomes feasible for me to NOT attempt to compose a poem! :D I don't know if it's my imagination, but this happens to me! I can write a 5000 words essay, if compelled I can write a story book also..I like writing! But, whenever I decide to take this writing and mould them into rhyming, rhythmic verses..I discover I can't write. I become as illiterate as I was when I joined Somerville School on January 7, 1996. I have no idea why! Once, I thought , enough is enough, I am going to beat my stupid silly notion of mine and SHOW my inner scared self that I can write a poem! I went to my mom (she works with Library of Congress, Delhi branch) and told her to get me a book on how to write poems. I waited for the whole day for her to return..with my precious book..she did. At 7 p.m. she returned. I opened it, read some basic tips..and started of with a basic topic..Flowers..I wrote a line.. "A creation of nature.." and FROZE. I couldn't write more. It was like boogeyman had taken over me..I tried so hard.. I tried the next day too! But i couldn't..I told mum to return the book..Then I just gave up!
After a few years, my sister started writing poems..OH MY GOD! Such wonderful ones..she writes so seamlessly..as if everything was prepared inside..watching her ignited a ray of hope in me..I tried again..


But, as you have guessed it did not work! :P I haven't tried since then..
I hope to overcome it..someday..and write a poem..about SOMETHING..and overcome my fears..and my disability! 

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

nice nice :) lol. it's okay..it's not a big deal..poems..hehe

mysterious gal said...

poems poems.....what to say.....i write them so i know sometimes they flow and sometimes not a word comes out....i always tht back in school me n creative impossible i didnt even relish books much till literature entered my life...but if i tell neone all this now...they will laugh as my life turned upside hill hence forth..but then many things rent everyone's cup of tea always ...hehehe ..still best for ur endevours :)

Apurva said...

thnx..i will keep trying..hehe! :P

Satans Darling™ said...

Well according to me if you try to rhyme them and get them in the right order you end up messing the message even more, so even I am trying to work on poems without rhymes, pure emotions :)

Rest I hope and pray that you succeed in this endeavor of yours with flying colors!

Raashi said...

lol..i hope u r succesful someday..keep trying.. :)

Apurva said...

@ashrita di
i wish..i will keep trying..! :) thnx :)

@raashi
thnx moti :D

TRUE BELIEVER said...

its nt all abt rhyming...try writing a prose poem...

Krishna P. said...

you did finally rite an AHMAZING POEM..guess you jus kept underestimatin your true sleepin talent..KEEP IT GOING!

Apurva said...

thnku thnku thnku <3